the life cycle of a bee
this year, me and my longest and dearest friend hit 13 years of friendship.
thirteen.
we met in 2011 as an 11 year old and a 10 year old. fourth graders with big dreams and even bigger school bags. i was the new girl who didn’t know if her necktie was tied right—she was the “old girl” who tied it perfectly for me. we’ve practically been glued to the hip since, even when we were in different classes for 7th grade and in different schools from 11th grade until college.
we’re 24 and 23 now. maurice is graduating on the 27th and i graduated last november. both of us finished the race later than we expected, but it doesn’t matter.
we’ve know each other longer than we haven’t. whenever i think about that little fact, i tear up a bit. when i was younger, i thought friends changed with the school year. i never truly had that one friend who remained with me once the school year was over. until maurice.
sometimes, when i look at her and we talk about our friendship and how much time has passed and how we’re lucky to have each other, i think what do you even know?
what do you even know about how much you’ve changed my life? how much anxiety in me that you’ve curbed simply by staying my friend?
what do you even know?
recently, i watched the 2 kids room episode by stray kids where hyunjin says the same thing to seungmin in response to how seungmin didn’t know that hyunjin thought of him so deeply.
what do you even know, said with fondness that you can feel even through a screen.
sometimes, i think about how maurice is practically the other half of my soul. how there is no reality—no universe where we aren’t best friends. where our paths didn’t cross. maurice and i could be two stones on a riverbank, or two leaves on a branch. it doesn’t matter.
in every single universe and every single reality, maurice and i share a life. that’s a fact.
the sun rises in the east and sets in the west.
the tide comes and goes with the moon.
maurice and i are best friends.
but it’s no big deal, right? it’s nothing serious.
she and i are just two people whose lives are intertwined until the end of time.
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the title of this post is in reference to two things: [1] the first school project we worked on together, [2] our nicknames for each other (which stems from point 1, as well as the mid 2010s philippine trend of calling your friend by/bhie, the shortened word for baby).
this is also more of a word vomit, so it’s unedited and a bit of a mess.
i’ve been an emotional wreck today, from crying over skz renewing their contract + their messages on bubble, to crying while watching my dog in his sleep, to crying while i think all my beautiful and wonderful friends. i finally have the friend circle i always longed for—the enviable group of best friends every main character had.
anyways—two songs today. this song, which a bit more mainstream, i know—but it describes us perfectly. the second song is this one.